Written in Stone

Wow, this is different. I'm up writing you while you, hopefully, are sleeping peacefully. Just wanted to let you know how VERY, VERY special you are to me. You are truly an angel sent from above and I am so thankful for you. You have changed my life in such a way you will never begin to understand. Thank you for caring for me last night when I needed you so. NO ONE else wold have ever done that for me. All I can do is try my best to return all the love that you have shown me and I intend to do just that. Have to wake you up now to call your mother. Please thank her again for me. Also thank her for raising such a beautiful, thoughtful caring soul. I love you so much Baby.
FOREVER YOURS,
Glenn

I adore you. I know this sounds crazy but all those years we were apart I thought a lot about all those things that would happen to you, that could happen to you and I HATED knowing I would not be able to be there with you and for you when it did. Last night, I was really able to be there for you when you needed me and that was as important to me as it was for you. You will never face anything alone again...not EVER! If it happens to you, I am going to be RIGHT THERE by your side. That's just one of the things love is...it means never having to face things alone. You have already before I got here but you will NEVER have to do it again. I promise you that. I LOVE YOU!!!!
Nan

Glenn's Accident - Fingertip Severed

Thank you, GHC♥

This is the happiest time of my life, when all my dreams, those long held dreams are finally coming true.  The man I have loved forever is by my side, my children are happy and laughing, & I am safe and loved and valued.  But because of my past I struggle alot.  That other man's voice screams in my head far too often for my liking and I feel myself crumble beneath the weight of it all.  Having a child I share with him makes it all the more difficult because I cannot just completely erase him as you could in other situations.  I know I have given my scarred and broken self to a beautiful man though who will stand by my side as I heal and learn to trust in myself again, in that I have all faith.  He has been my light in the darkness.  He has helped me find laughter again...and so very slowly I am finding all the broken places in my soul and am beginning to make them whole once more.  When the darkness grips me, he holds me and helps me through.  He is my very best friend and I am more thankful to God for him than I am for most anything.  I have never known what it means to be loved like that by anyone other than him so it is fitting he is the one with me now.  I know he won't let me fall.  For that I say thank you.  Thank you GHC for holding onto me and for helping me get through.  Thank you for standing beside me on this journey, for walking with me, for holding my hand, for loving me so very much and giving me every reason in the world to trust, to live, to love again.  I love you!

Written in Stone

Years, I have waited to feel peace; I feel it now. Years I have waited to love purely; I love now. Saturday night was such a nice evening and it reverberates still in my mind and heart. I can still feel the touch of you, the softness of your skin on my lips, the passion and love in your touch. I let the memory wash over me and I feel you here. Yesterday I woke up feeling happy, happy to have slept by you last night, happy to have joined with you in such a loving way, happy that we are here together after all this time, happy for the time we spent together as a family on Easter. I wish I could somehow be more for you, but I am all there is and I can offer nothing more than that. I am no less than a woman, a “soft around the edges” woman who looks at you and listens to you and forgets to breathe. You are a sweet mystery Glenn Henry and I do so want to unravel your heart, to challenge your mind. I want to make you feel a million things at once and to know that I still inspire you.. Inspire me, you do. I close my eyes and I see a myriad of things I would like to capture, a thousand little facets I would like to express. In the glow of lanterns, I see a face and a soul that dances through me and I know I am captured. I would love to be here for always as your lone prisoner. I am here and I offer you my heart, hold it tight Glenn. It is solely yours. I need you...I want you...I love you!!!!
Always,
Nan

Easter Sunday - 2011

It Was Worth Every Mile

The roads that we've traveled
Ain't always been easy
Lord knows we've both seen our share
Of troubles and trials

It's hard to believe
We made it so far together
But just between you and me darling
It was worth every mile

It was worth every storm
We had to weather
It was worth all the evenings
We cried together
When the going got toughest
I could count on your smile
And looking back now I can say
It was worth every mile

I know you and I both had our doubts
That we'd make it
But deep in the back of our minds
We knew all along

That love's not for quitters
So we kept ours moving
Oh and I think you'll have to agree
It was worth every mile

It was worth every storm
We had to weather
It was worth all the evenings
We cried together
When the going got toughest
I could count on your smile
And looking back now I can say
It was worth every mile

And looking back now I can say
It was worth every mile

Hello. My name is Nan and I am a survivor of Domestic Violence.

As some of you are aware, I have been struggling with some very personal demons.  This nightmare comes from years of abuse from a person who claimed to "love" me.  Yes, I am a survivor.  I have endured a fractured skull, blackened eyes, more bruises than I can count among many other things that I will not now list.  It is enough to say,  I have known domestic violence intimately.  I have lived it.  I want to heal from it and this is my first step.  Admitting a thing, even one that has been unspeakable, is the first step towards healing.  So I do that now and open my heart to those of you reading these words who have experienced or are currently still living in that hell.  If you need to talk, msg me.  You're abuser wants you to believe you are alone.  You are not ALONE!  I am here.  I will listen.  I understand what you are going through.  This nightmare can end because we are much stronger than they give us credit for.  YOU are much stronger than you believe.  I realize that now many of you will quietly slip away, many of my so called "friends" will disappear.  I will not hold it against you but I am not sorry to say that your particular form of "friendship" is not one I need in my life anyway.  For those of you who love me, who are not afraid to be my friend, who send me your love and encouragement, I cannot thank you enough.  Hope is, after all, a thing with wings and each of you that hold me close to your heart have given me that.  You will never know what it means.  For courage's sake, I will say it again...
"Hello.  My name is Nan and I am a SURVIVOR of Domestic Violence and I will NOT be silenced any longer."
God Bless you all.

Written in Stone

Baby~
To say I love you is the understatement of my life. You have claimed my soul and I cannot begin to describe how deeply that changes me. I feel you everywhere and I see you in every single thing I look at. These past 7 months have been so dreamlike, I almost feel like I must have died and gone to some other place that is not of this world. It has been nothing short of rapture. You make me feel love in scores of ways. You took my very heart in your hands last night and you held it like it was a hallowed treasure to you, a gift of untold value. I felt it in the purity of your touch, in the passion of your kiss, in the intensity of your gaze. I feel it now and it courses through me, sweeping me along and taking me to a height I have never known. You are the rarest, most precious gift I have ever known and I often wonder how I could deserve such a thing as beautiful as you are. I reach for you Glenn, not just with my hands but also with all that I am and I offer myself up to you without reservation or hesitation. When you reach back for me, a sensation I have never known rages inside me and I feel in ways I did not know were possible. Tell me, my love, that you feel the same. I cannot wait until make me your own, you give me your name, I want you feel this love burn through you like it never has before. I have found my dream, my everything and there will never be anything else but you in the glowing. I would give up my very life for you. Tell me that when you look into my eyes, you know you have found the one thing you have waited to find all your life…real love and real happiness. Tell me that what was broken has been healed and what was lost has been found. You are my world and I would go to any length to let you know that. I came to you and in so doing, I found my pot of gold, I found my reality, I found my perfection. It is you. It is all you. It has ALWAYS been you! I love you and I thank you for showing me that real, true love does exist.
♥ Nan

Oh yes baby, I do, I do, I do!!!!!! You are everything to me. All I've ever wanted. More than I've ever imagined. I've never even come close to the way you make me feel. It's AMAZING. Just like last night was. It just keeps getting better and better. I love you so much. With all by heart, my soul, my being. I always have been and am!
YOURS, Glenn