Remembering Not So Long Ago...

On September 1, 2010...I wrote these words to someone very special, someone I had only just found again...


"I hope your night was filled with all the beauty she does possess. Mine was, even as I sat and watched it all spin around me, crashing into the moon and scattering the stars. I was never so thankful for tiny little arms wrapped around my neck and the darkness ... when all the pictures in my head could calm and I could see them, piece by piece, bit by bit and remember without fear of falling into the depths. I am so glad to have found you although I will readily admit my emotion is on the verge of something. A catalyst is swirling and twirling and pushing and pulling DEMANDING I listen. I believe things happen for a reason, was it just that I searched for you and actually found you on this site...no, it is never that simple. You have your life I know and a woman in your life who fills it...I have my life and 4 beautiful children who need me, but somehow our paths have crossed again and for what reason we do not yet know but I remain transfixed, breath held, waiting, wondering and thanking God for the time I am given...to wait for that simple hello or that name upon my screen. There is beauty in youth and love, on that, you are no doubt wholly correct, but there is also an undeniable beauty in old love, eternal love, departed love and age...that time when we now know what we should have known and actually know we know it! When I said those words to you years ago, I meant them just as I believe those sweet words that pierced my heart, "I remain, as always, yours" are the truest spoken. To feel a love so deep after 25 years is something, but to add to that a lifetime in between and finding the waters unchanged is monumental. I am glad you are here. I am glad I didn't sleep, but instead spent the night with you close to my heart.
Hope your night was as beautiful."

It AMAZES me how very, very true these words were.  Amazingly enough, the waters are indeed WHOLLY unchanged between he and I... and the reason I spoke of not yet knowing, well, we very clearly know now that there WAS a reason for our paths to cross exactly when they did.  My friends, we are truly on the verge of something BIG!!!  I sincerely couldn't be happier!