Written In Stone

What a day for me...dance classes, homeschooling, online college History class and you...YOU! I closed my eyes a moment ago, trying to find some quiet in my exploding emotions...but in the quiet, there was only you. I thought about my kids, how I would not for my life change them...I love them with every breath in my body...but there is one thing that I have always said and will always say I would change in a heartbeat and that one thing is you. I don't want to change the fact that we met and loved...I only want to change the fact that you left, and I left and we went in directions that took us so far away from us. That I would change in a minute, without hesitation. There are those things you just "know". I "know" you and somehow I believe I always will. I just look at that picture of you and I melt all over again, just like I used to. Funny how some things never change. You know, this has nothing to do with my hellish life but has always been with me, deep inside and nothing has EVER changed that. There has not been a moment I have not felt this way about you! If you only knew. It is a flood for me too, to see you was such a surprise to me. It caught me completely off guard and my emotions went into overdrive. I am still breathing I think, but my heart is exploding and my mind is racing and everything around me is whirling like in some video with pictures of you and me and yesterday. I know I won't sleep tonight but I don't mind. I will have you close in my mind and that is going to be a wonderful thing. I never dreamed...I never dreamed I'd find you here but finding you, I do know I don't want to lose you in the dark ever again. Like I said, a simple hello...a small thing to so many but it is enough for me. I am glad you don't mind my writing and I am more glad you want me to keep doing so. Those words, those words you said when you ended that email are more to me than any other words I could ever hear. They brought me to tears. Thank you!
♥Nan